Hi all, I have been struggling with my own prayers and decided to put in a prayer request.
I have separated from a great man in my life that I now believe God has given me since December 2009. While I knew he was the right one, I had allowed negativity to cloud my judgement and behaviour, and led to his departure.
The months that followed, I had agonized and continued to be negative and suspicious of his motives. But praying not only for my recovery but also thanking for him has made me see how much I had meant to him and his efforts to help me. But I was continuously pushing him away. Now that this is clear, all the other issues surrounding us in the past year that I have influence over were also resolved.
I pray for a chance to have him open his heart to me. I pray for me to have wisdom to see his needs and thoughts. I pray that we will be open and honest to each other in all circumstances as we are still friends. I pray that we no longer have to be so withholding about everything, even if it hurts ourselves and the other because honesty would help us grow in the relationship and friendship. I pray that the love that I now understand and feel albeit delayed, continues to be pure and without greed, jealousy or wrong reasons